Trust.

Feeling emotional again. Its recurring. Its bad. How can I see the light and move away from negative thoughts? Is it from the quater life crisis i'm suffering from.
Why do i keep feeling sucidal?

Recently a string of events happened. I'm Struggling.

Its really hard for a person whose super reliant on other people to have to be independant. The world is cruel. Even the ones u truly loved, can make use of you or laughing behind your back cruelly.

I feel so alone.

Theres no one there where i could really count on. No one you can really trust. If there is such a person, i will definately cherish him/her.

Faltering Emotions

Dear bloggie,

I broke down hard once again.

I promised myself to grow stronger, change my perspectives.
But why is it so hard..

I told myself I can do this all by myself.
But why is it so hard..

I told myself there are people around who care and do love me.
But why do i still feel so lonely?

Why am I hurting inside?
Why am I struggling so hard for?
What am I living for?
What's the purpose of my life?

Why can't I do anything right?

I need my answers.

Till i clear my head and get everything straighten out,
I have to remind myself.. DO NOT GIVE UP.

Lost.

What should i do? I am lost.
I'm tired. I feel as if i'm falling..

:'(

Distorted Perceptions

The world's turning scary.

What I am thinking may not be what i thought.

I need to get away.

Somewhere where i could stay pure.

Somewhere where my innocence is not discovered.

I can't trust no one anymore.

NO ONE at all.

My 1st post as a 26 year old

I've finally moved on..

Its been sometime since i abandon this blog.

I guess everyone moves on.

One that is really close to you today
might not be close to you on another day.

Am I happy? I dunno if i am happy already..
Am i Satisfied.. i guess i want myself to be satisfied..

I dunno what im thinking nw.. just feeling emotional i guess.

Time for bed.. gd nite my bloggie.