Hello Bloggie in 2013. I'm back. What will you do if you are in alot of pain? When will i be able to open the door and walk away? I'm not getting any younger - everyone my age is getting married or has gotten married with kids. What happened to me? Job's not good too - so what if i could achieve being in one of the top companies in a higher position? No one seems to care. I'm not performing like i thought i would. What went wrong - why has my life gone upside down? Why cant i communicate well.. why is it that i could keep all the pain and hurt in me and try to live with it? How much longer can i hold out? Is running away now, or shd i say starting afresh now help?

Tired of life

Suddenly feel tired of life.. maybe its cos i've been falling sick all the time. Need to ace a job interview tmr.. gd luck to myself and gd nite world!

Who's viewing this?

Saw the web traffic for my blog. Quite high for a personal private site.. so who's viewing? I wonder.

Vulnerability

I'm feeling very vulnerable now. Who will tell me that everything is ok and hug me with all their love? I just wanna be loved, is there anything wrong with that? It's my fault that i nv know how to cherish the guys that loved me more than themselves. What should i do now?

What am I doing with my life?

Dear bloggie, I'm feeling down and insecure. Should I give up? Sometimes I look back at all my hardwork towards the relationship and towards him, I wonder.. Why am I working so hard for? Why do I give my heart and soul to someone so immature? I want to be love. I need the support from a man I love. I know all this yet why am I tormenting myself? Who will love and support me? Maybe I should give up and stay away from humans. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I'm tired.

내 마음은 아파 ..

난 너무 외롭고 텅 빈 기분. 당신이 너무보고 싶어 .. 그것은 아파요.

If you really love someone.. you forgive.

Dear bloggie,

I just msg him that i forgave him. I calmed down and thought about it from his perspective and asked him not to blame himself.

I'm not interested to play his childish games. Told him the best way to make it up to me is to be happy.

And then whatever response he might give.. i'll just be on my way.

On my way to happiness.. on my way to what i deserved best.

I'm feeling better now...

Wish me all the best. I don't want to feel hurt anymore.